Wako0o0o0o0ooo

crazy_biatch_18 @ 2007-04-17T00:03:00

2007-04-16T23:06:07Z

hmmmmmm its over again!!!!
this time I will NOT take him back!! If he wants me that is

i love him so much, gonna take fukin ages to get over him!!!!!!!!!!

Also I'm not having sex 4 a while.... once u introduce that, everything fuks up!!!!!

hehe but at least I stole his virginity hahaha

xx

crazy_biatch_18 @ 2007-03-12T17:28:00

2007-03-12T17:29:39Z

w00p w00p
we're back together!!

oh gosh, I'm so happy!
ayeeeeeeeeeeeee

crazy_biatch_18 @ 2007-03-06T02:23:00

2007-03-06T02:31:56Z

How can I be so fukin stoo0o0opid.
I have lost the one person in my life that I thought would be with me forever =[
It was a good 10 month but I don't want it to be over.......

I'm gonna miss him
xxx

crazy_biatch_18 @ 2007-02-19T21:53:00

2007-02-19T21:56:13Z

Everything seems to be ok now, gonna see less of each other methinks and hopefully that will work =]

crazy_biatch_18 @ 2007-02-13T04:27:00

2007-02-13T04:33:49Z

We both don't want to lose each other but we both know we can't go on the way we are!!

They say Love Is Never Letting Go! They say Love Conquers Anything!!
Is love really enough or is there more?? To what extent can love conquer anything??

Something I gotta think about because I don't think in my case love is enough.... I used to think it was but nothing has changed.... we've been trying for a month now and I haven't even realised it's become that bad until a couple of hours ago....

fingers crossed this works out.... he doesnt realise that if we split I'd be crushed and probably do something stupid!!

crazy_biatch_18 @ 2007-02-12T21:25:00

2007-02-12T21:28:57Z

Ok so I was wrong about everything.....on my last chance with Gareth and I have to change everything about me before Wednesday or I lose him =[

I dont know what to do.

I want to die!! How does slit wrists sound?? In a bath?? 0o0o0o0h blood red water

xx

crazy_biatch_18 @ 2006-12-25T01:37:00

2006-12-25T01:39:30Z

Merry Christmas!!

crazy_biatch_18 @ 2006-12-06T22:02:00

2006-12-06T22:02:10Z

6th December and I'm not nearly finished my Christmas shopping - grrrr!
My mam got me an advent calender right.... and I says get me a milkybar one... sold out - how can a fukin milkybar calender be sold out on the 1st December..... so what I get instead.... FIFI and the FLOWERTOTS!!! what the fuk??

Gareth's at work so I am doing fuk all.... managed to spend £35 on him already... not even that on my family but you know what.... I dont care....

Still disliking someone but I still have to get them something for christmas... grrrr! Dunno what to buy.... I wish I knew how paypal worked and I'd be able to get cheap-ish dvd's for them on ebay...... grrr! I might just look for somethings and then get Gareth to buy them for me... not pay for them you gotta understand... I will give him the money :D

Aaaakkkk

Getting my hair cut on friday and I have no idea how I want it done.....

Mam wants me to put some music on cd's for her... I get paid for doing so.... and it pays for my haircut so I do not go into my wages..... aaakkk not getting much this week coz I had Friday off...

AND laura.... I hope you are ok with the whole David thing...... talk to me if you want...

crazy_biatch_18 @ 2006-12-01T17:54:00

2006-12-01T17:54:39Z

I'm seriously disliking someone at the moment!!

Hmmm, looks like my night out is cancelled due to family problems... its not my mams fault at all.
I might just go out by myself and drown in alcohol.
That might be fun!!

Someone join me???

crazy_biatch_18 @ 2006-10-26T20:58:00

2006-10-26T20:09:21Z

Ain't posted anything in aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaages.... and the result came out in August.... jesus christ on a tricycle.

1. Me and Gareth going great... coming up 6 months on the 2nd November.... going to Newcastle to celebrate... oooh never been to Newcastle before, not for a proper night out..

2. Obviously not at Uni, coz I am thick.... reapply next year??

3. Still at Raffles :D:D w00p w00p. The appeal of working there is losing its touch now...

4. Applied for a job as a Trainee Chemist in Felling.... could have gotten a Chemistry degree out of it.... but I didnt get it.... coz again, I am thick... in the maths department :P

5. Missing Steph's birthday on Saturday :( Gotta work!! I haven't seen her in aaaaaaaaaaaaages and I miss her. Gonna ring her tomorrow to say hi :)

6. Some friends have neglected me.... but I am happy with my work friends... going to play pool tomorrow with Gareth, MT and Leanne. Should be a laugh.

crazy_biatch_18 @ 2006-08-10T13:10:00

2006-08-10T12:17:34Z

Oh dear... next Thursday results are out and I doubt anyone can be worrying as much as me... well possibly Laura but she'll have nothing to worry about.... grrr! Hope dave is there when I go get them....

up early!

who wants to meet me early??
Laura?

crazy_biatch_18 @ 2006-06-29T13:48:00

2006-06-29T12:51:51Z

Aha Thursday has arrived!!!!!!
7pm Park Lane woo!!

Who's gonna be as drunk as meeeee???

crazy_biatch_18 @ 2006-06-25T12:16:00

2006-06-25T11:18:15Z

w00t... only 2 left to go and they are tomorrow....
Fingers crossed people....

No matter how the exams go I am still gonna have one major hangover come Friday morning.

That is all...

crazy_biatch_18 @ 2006-06-13T13:57:00

2006-06-13T12:58:55Z

Aaaaaaargh LW4 + LW5 on Monday - eeeek

crazy_biatch_18 @ 2006-06-08T02:58:00

2006-06-08T13:58:30Z

how fucking hard was Chem 1???
I think I made up pretty much all of the paper!!
Well besides the Relative Atomic Mass thingy and the Empirical Formula!!!

hahhaahha
I have so failed lol.

crazy_biatch_18 @ 2006-06-05T23:33:00

2006-06-05T22:41:22Z

Hehe... I think they went pretty well.... had to have a long bloody question on the mechanics of breathing!!! Damn them.... I have been cursed!! I said to Amy before we went in that they'd have it as a 15 mark question... I was right!!! Must totally be psychic!!! Something about a crocodile aswell :S:S How f00king stupid!!
Loved the Genetics questions though!!! I am minT!!

Lalalala

crazy_biatch_18 @ 2006-05-24T00:30:00

2006-05-23T23:36:23Z

heehee went to Yates tonight.... twas just me, Laura and John.
Was really funny... were talking about Golf for some strange reason... and Birdies lol... I think I knew some of the stuff about it... hmmm dont even like Golf.

Gareth showed up at like 11. He's speaking to me now which has gotta be a good thing.

Hmmm YEY!!! College finishes on Friday!!! w00t!!

crazy_biatch_18 @ 2006-05-18T11:37:00

2006-05-18T10:40:04Z

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh!!!!!
Fucking fucking fucker.

Was gonna go to Sunderland tonight to see Scrafton.... but has been abruptly cancelled due to Scrafton not being paid. I was only going because I wanted to see him. I miss him!!!

Looks like I'm going to Shitty Shields tonight instead...

FUCK!!!

crazy_biatch_18 @ 2006-05-14T15:17:00

2006-05-14T14:28:45Z

________________________________________________________________________________________________
Last night
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Work wasn't so bad last night... I guess it's all coz of this new licence we got till 12. I don't think people have really took much notice of it yet but I am sure they will...

Went to Dusk with Laura and Gareth... just for like an hour coz Laura forgot her house key and would have been locked out due to her mam going to bed. It was ok.. seen Nathan in there, got a drink off him too... coz last week he did say he'll get me one :D:D:D

________________________________________________________________________________________________
Today
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Didn't get up till like 2:45pm... had a really late txting session with Sean... not gonna go into detail but if he reads this I know he'll smile :D

Getting dinner soon.. I am starving.....

Going to see Joann's new addition to her family today... he's only a week old bless him.. and the pictures I've seen are gorgeous. He's called Danny.
She's already got 4-year-old James, 2-year-old Ben and now this new addition week-old Danny!!!
She's always wanted to be a mother though :)
And I love kids lol... everyone should know what I'm like with Eve...

crazy_biatch_18 @ 2006-05-10T22:41:00

2006-05-10T22:26:11Z

Well I hope everyone is geet proud of little old me... I've managed to get another exam paper done today :D
Biology 2 and I got an A.... we get the answer sheet and I didnt look I promise :)

However, I ran out of Kalms on Friday and have gone 5 days without them... and its starting to take its toll... we were doing a BYA 6 paper yesterday and I couldnt do it... I burst into tears (so noone could see me lol) coz it is just so hard... I answered like 19 marks outta 75.... how shit am I? Huh? Answer me that!!

I'll have to get some more like lol. Especially when my first exam is on the 5th June... not long away now!!
I need to calm down.. seriously... or I might damage my head or myself or someone else..and I'd rather not!!

Got quite a lot going on inside my head right now.. too much to write down infact... well I could try but it'll be all muddled and shit so there you go. Plus I'm trying not to think about anything in detail either, not till the exams are over... last one 26th June... and then me and Laura and whoever else wants to join us are going to Newcastle for a piss-up... depending on the day coz I might be working!!

I Need A Decent Night Out In Sunderland!!!!!

crazy_biatch_18 @ 2006-04-16T17:26:00

2006-04-16T16:31:25Z

Lalalalalalalalala

Hey hey.
I still think work is f00king awesome (it must be coz I never use that word ever).
I'm having so much fun and I think I'm eventually getting on with everyone the way I'd like.
Hehe.

Fuck me, Good Friday was like constantly packed from like 1pm - midnight.... and i was working from 5. I swear my legs and back are still killing now.. and I was at work last night and again tonight.

I need a good night out on the the town... possibly the traditional Sunderland which we all know and love. However, there is a slight glitch.... lack of funding.... hmmmmmm.

crazy_biatch_18 @ 2006-04-01T18:48:00

2006-04-01T17:55:16Z

w00t. I love my job so much and tonight is only my 4th night.
I work at Raffles and I started last weekend. I only work Friday and Saturday nights but its cool.
Everybody is so canny and help me so I don't make stupid mistakes.

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Usually I'd get bored of a job after 4 nights. Like the Bowling Alley. KFC was amusing coz I was working with my best friends at the time (Gabby and Nicola).

Shit! Must dash and get dressed for work. Don't wanna turn up with no make-up on my face. I gotta look good!

crazy_biatch_18 @ 2006-03-24T15:14:00

2006-03-24T15:24:13Z

I know bitching is a horrible thing to be doing but this girl (not gonna mention her name) really gets on my nerves sometimes.

We were out last Thursday (16th March) having a piss-up for Scrafton's birthday. It was fun and all but something happened in Ku to said girl... but she won't tell me what.
Thing is, she told Scrafton and not me. I thought I was her close friend too.

Firstly it bugs me that she's trying to take my place with my best friend. I dont know if I'm just being silly but its some things she does, like always having to have the first cuddle or always interrupting me when I'm trying to tell him something. She doesn't tell me things, but she'll tell him. I dunno what it is like, I thought girls told secrets and stuff to each other. Also I dunno if its because Scrafton is gay, or more funny, or just someone better qualified to confide in.
It's really pissing me off. I've never been so annoyed at a person in my life. Sometimes I wish we never met her.

Anyways, back to the Ku story. All I know is that she disappeared to the toilet and when she returns she's all upset and flustered.
Then the next day, she pulls Scrafton to one side and tells him something in confidence. Well hey! I'm here too you know.

Thing is, Scrafton's already told me what happened. She could have told me but she chose not to. Fair do's. Just it's a bit unfair when she calls me and Scrafton and Goodall the closest friends she's ever had.

I just wanted her to tell me. And thats why I'm pissed off.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh!!!

crazy_biatch_18 @ 2006-01-23T13:39:00

2006-01-23T13:49:01Z

Sitting in the L Block SIS room with Scrafton and Jamie (again). Not doing much to be honest, just thought I'd update this rather empty journal page.
It felt all lonely and stuff.

Scrafton looks really really really really bored... not so sure what he's doing... searching for "city of villains" it looks like. I think he might just fall asleep on that chair <------ lol
He's sitting on it the wrong way so no wonder he looks like he's gonna go to sleep. Awwww he looks so comfortable... pity he has to move when he decides to go home. Awww bless him.

Jamie is looking just as bored. Can't see from here whats she's doing. She was on myspace for a while. I found that out when I was spinning around on my chair. Gots me pretty dizzy it did.

Had CHM 4 exam this morning. Wasn't bad at all. I think I've managed to get at least a high C low D sort of thing. I managed to get a maximum of 77 marks out of 90 wrote down. Provided that they are all right, I'll have an A for it. I will be proper happy and stuff if I do manage to get an A.

Urgh!! BYA5 tomorrow morning.... how fucking fun can things get. I pretty much know all my Genetics stuff. Makes sense really if Genetics is what I am interested in.
The Ecology however, is another matter. I haven't a clue really. But I managed to get a B in 2 of my past papers :) go me!
Lets see if I can shine again tomorrow - as long as stress dont kick in first.

Blah blah blah.
More revision tonight methinks. Spent most of the past 2weeks revising Biology. It's driving me insane. But I know it has to be done. Just a quick go-over tonight methinks.

crazy_biatch_18 @ 2005-12-13T19:50:00

2005-12-13T19:51:09Z

I know I am new to all of this Live-Journal thingy but I thought I'd best start with some truth in my life.

Last night, my precious German Shepherd named Tara, had to be put down due to her cancer making her too weak to function.
Her back legs couldn't/wouldn't work properly, she was weak all over really. She couldn't eat or drink, her eyes were moving from side-to-side, like she was having a fit or something without the shaking. She was pretty much unresponsive - like she couldn't see or hear us speaking to her, trying to bring her back around. She has cancer of the lymph glands, like in her neck and underarms, so the lumps were swollen and huge.

Now she's gone and I just want her back, I miss her so much.
I've never had a death of a human in my family before so I really don't know how to cope with it.
Tara was pretty much human anyways - preferred human food to her dog food, she liked to sit on my knee and stuff.

I miss her so much